mixed emotions

It's been an odd week. I've gone from a profound panic, to a stubborn determination to tackle assigned work, to a numb sort of tiredness, to an almost equally stubborn sort of determination to not tackle anymore work for at least a little time, and... it's odd... but I think I made a game of it once for about an hour, and that was good.
Historiography has the weirdest Analysis thus far assigned. Visit six different news sites four times and look for bias (does that have a plural?) on the Israeli/Palestinian Conflict and the War in Iraq. Frankly, this is very unusual for me. I've avoided news for a long time. And partly, it has been fun, to see the different versions and get sidetracked by stories of elephant treadmills. However, there seem to have been violent deaths every day that I've checked. And I don't know what to do with that... how to react... what to think.
On happier notes, I have been offered friendship, and I actually managed to realize what I was being offered! And now I'm very happy that I realized that a lot of friendship just results from sharing the inconsequentials, and I'm somewhat amused at myself for still evaluating such things as unimportant... *sighs* this all is very garbled.
I have a good excuse. Leatherwood told me to blog, and I read his last two posts before writing this. Both resonate. Although, I'm not at the point of admitting failure (briefly wrestles with setting herself up for failure next semester). There are different ideas in this pressure cooker. I only hope I can manage to sort them out.