well, I've made it, but I don't feel like I have...

and now *sighs* I feel very left behind, even though just about everyone I know, hasn't left quite yet. *shrugs* feelings are weird, and I've been listening to stuff I shouldn't have... stuff that ties into times long ago... at least from my perspective...
Stupid Kid
"I think this place is swell
there's much familiar here
I get my laundry done
and I get homecooked meals
when I'm feeling tired
I can turn off all the lights
ignore the knocking on the door
pretend I'm not alive

Daddy, it's Saturday
and I don't want to go outside
and mow the grass today
would you love me just as much
if I was just your stupid kid
would you love me just as much
if I was just your stupid kid

They tell me that I'm bright
sometimes I think they're right
but I guess I'll never know
cause I won't go outside...

My mind wanders off
to things I've never seen
are these walls higher than the cost of opportunity?
I'm too big for my bed
and I've outgrown my shoes
but my fear of leaving is the one thing I just can't lose...

Would I be of any use to you
if I never amounted to much more
than just your stupid kid?
would I love me just as much
if I was just your stupid kid?"
~Caedmon's Call

the problem with music is that if it fits the mood, it also reinforces it.