I have been mad...

Or it might be the third case, of the madman who called himself Christ. If we said what we felt we should say: "So you are the Creator and Redeemer of the world: but what a small world it must be! What a little heaven you must inhabit with angels no bigger than butterflies! How sad it must be to be God; and an inadequate God! Is there really no life fuller and no love more marvelous than yours; and is it really in your small and painful pity that all flesh must put its faith? How much happier you would be, how much more of you there would be, if the hammer of a higher God could smash your small cosmos, scattering the stars like spangles, and leave you in the open, free like other men to look up as well as down!"

G.K. Chesterton
Orthodoxy
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